First Day of Montessori School

Well it finally came, our first day of school. We've spoke about it often over the last week with Elly, but not to the point it was on her mind constantly. She was pretty excited about the concept of going to school, but I don't think she had any idea that going to school meant Mommy abandoning her. I say abandon, because that is clearly the look that she gave me through her giant tear filled eyes this morning. Her eyes were the size of saucers and they filled up like a cartoon would with shiny glistening tears while her lower lip popped out and started quivering. Her expression clearly not happy, but completely aware of what was about to happen.

As I walked out of the room I could hear her calling for me and crying. It was hard to just walk away. I went upstairs and spoke with the other teacher for a few minutes and after a bit I couldn't hear her crying anymore. She's certainly been more upset in the past and it wasn't the most awful cries she's managed, but still very tough.

It's funny, when she was in home care i never really gave much thought to what she would be doing at any point in the day, aside from maybe acknowledging nap time. I suppose that's because I really had no idea what they were doing. Where as now, I'm spending all morning wondering what she's doing now. I think, they should be outside playing... gosh, I hope she's having a wonderful time and doesn't stay mad at me for too long.